Wednesday, March 14, 2012

loss: one year

Adapted from my "just in case this is my last chance to tell you" letter to A, March 15th, last year. (It was.)

Someone asked me today if the reason you and I got so close, even though we were 7 years apart, was all the interests we had in common. I said I don't think that was it. I don't think it would have mattered what I was into. I think the reason you're so easy for me to be with is that you accept me for whoever I am.
I think you do that for everyone. I think that's one of your gifts. But you were the first person in our family to do that for me; and I don't even know how to tell you what that meant to me back then, or what it still means.  
With all of the dread hanging over us these days, I still feel lighter every time I walk into a room and see you.
I love you so much. 
P.

8 comments:

Jacquie | After Words said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. Still

Tine said...

Oh Persephone. ((hug)) Wishing you peace and strength this week.

Not on Fire said...

I am sorry for your loss.

electriclady said...

Holding you in my heart today.

Same Nice Person said...

I still feel lighter every time I walk into a room and see you.

What a wonderful blessing to have had this in your life, making the loss of it, of course, all the greater.

I am so glad you were able to tell her of your perception and appreciation and love. Thank you for sharing with us what you so beautifully told her.

I am so sorry, and I wish you much nechama.

projgen said...

Same Nice Person said exactly what I wanted to say, but better.

Big hugs.

JennaM said...

"...you were the first person in our family to do that for me; and I don't even know how to tell you what that meant to me back then, or what it still means"

Just how I feel about my baby sis. Takes my breath away.

xoxoxo

Lut C. said...

A wonderful letter and a wonderful tie to have with a person. How awful to have to miss her.