Wednesday, March 9, 2011

i can't do this anymore

I'm flying to Israel to be with my little sister, for however long we have left.

I have not written about this since her cancer spread, out of respect for her family's privacy. And I don't plan to get into detail now.

But I'm struggling with the idea that this should be private, now. I don't want the world to go about its business, unaware that this grievous wrong is taking place. This is so wrong. This is so unfair. This is a loss for the entire world, whether you know it or not.

I want you all to stop and take notice. I want you to grieve too.

I am so angry.

27 comments:

janeo said...

You are right: It isn't fair.

My heart breaks, and I am so sorry. I wish I had more than love and prayers to offer.

Tine said...

Oh Persephone. Now that I know, I *am* grieving. I'm imagining how I would feel if I were saying good-bye to my little sister....my heart is breaking for you.

I'm glad you said something. You and your family deserve all the support, prayers, and good thoughts that the world can give you.

You most definitely have mine.

Julie said...

Witnessing this grievous wrong. Sending you love and support.

Jody said...

I'm so sorry. I wish this wasn't happening to your sister, or to you and all her family. How awful.

C said...

It is too terrible, and there's nothing to make it better. Please let us know if there's something we can do - concrete, practical helpfulness, or perhaps something completely the opposite. Thinking of you, and your family. Wishing I knew a better answer.

Gretchen said...

I am in tears at my desk. My heart is breaking for you, as a big sister to a little sister, as a daughter of sisters, as a mother to sisters. Not that it would be different if it were a brother, but I know sisters, and I am sorry that you are learning what it's like to lose one, way, way, way too early. I am so sorry.

electriclady said...

I'm so sorry. How terrible and unfair. Is there anything I can do? Run an errand for you guys in the neighborhood? Be a friendly face meeting you at the airport on the way home? I'd bring food for the kids (are they going with you?) if my kitchen wasn't an allergy/kashrut nightmare. PM me.

Anonymous said...

I'm so, so sorry.

Rach said...

Persephone, I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's a terrible terrible thing. For whatever it's worth, you have my support.

Jen said...

I am so terribly sorry. I'd seen that you were taking frequent trips over there, but I didn't realize why.

Sending you lots of love and support.

rhubelerosko said...

There is nothing I can add to the above besides I am thinking of you and her and her family...and even though I have never met her, I feel the loss.

Leah Cypess said...

I also hadn't realized the reason for your trips was so terrible and so unfair.

I'm so terribly sorry.

Jacquie | After Words said...

I'm so, so sorry. Thanks for saying something.

Wishing your family strength.

Erica! said...

I'm so sorry, this is an awful thing for you and your family to be going through.

Jenny said...

I will grieve with you as if she were my own sister.

I am so sorry you have to endure this. I'm sorry anyone has to.

Anonymous said...

I am so so sorry. My heart aches for you.

Emma said...

We grieve with you, love. Our hearts break and we cry with you.

It isn't fair. It isn't right. No.

We are here for you.

Miriam said...

I wish I had something to say ... that I am sorry? that I am praying for your miracle? that I hope you all find the strength you need to get through these terrible days?

There is nothing to say, I know, and I am crying here by my desk.

I am so, so sorry.

Lut C. said...

Thinking of your sister, you, your family. Wishing you strength in this difficult time.

shanna said...

No words. You know that. I love you.

Kate F. said...

I am so, so sorry. And you're right, it is unfair and I'm furious for you.

emily said...

My heart is with you, my friend.

projgen said...

hugs. Just - hugs.

Beverly said...

I am so sorry, for all of you.

Rivkah T said...

So very sorry to hear this. My thoughts are with you, your sister and family.

Stephanie said...

I am so, so sorry. It's not fair. I can't make it better, but I will offer to cry for a bit with you.

Same Nice Person said...

I hadn't realized this was the reason for your recent trips to Israel. I am so sorry. Thank God you have a good relationship with her and are able to spend time with her. I totally agree with your sentiments. Please consider me among those who are stopping and taking notice that a world is ending.